Secret
I am gonna make it a point to start or end my day with this daily ritual of self appreciation or loathing coupled with a tinge of internal reflection. At least that’s what I tell everyone when asked by my friends as to why do I have a blog. And I must say I have stayed very true to the cause at least up till now. There have been quite a few issues where I had to hold myself back since I started blogging but generally things have been quite transparent.
However things have come to my life recently that have made me realize that no matter how I hard I try, I will never be able to make my life completely transparent because there are bound to be secrets that everyone has to keep.
One of the reasons I started blogging was because I got into a lot of shit keeping a lot of things to myself and living horrible lies and I figured with an online journal that was dedicated towards my daily rantings about the issues about my life, I would be more conscious of the consequences that I would suffer should I engage in any implicating activities. And generally I have succeeded other than that one moment that cost me a friend, but trust me I did have noble intentions in keeping it from him. I swear. But the point is that I feel a lot better being more open and upfront about everything where I didn’t have to hide anything and my life was an open book.
But today, it has dawned upon me that sometimes secrets are not kept because of its potential to implicate the individual keeping the secret. In fact, many a time major secrets are kept because of its potential to implicate a lot of people, especially people close to your heart.
And it is under this motivation to protect these people that I am going to have to keep another secret, to do something that I have been trying to avoid for a very long time, but it has come to a point where honouring the trust bestowed upon me will be the most important thing I do here.
I realize by blogging about it, its not going to make it any easier for myself or anyone to understand, but it is after all my personal blog and it really makes me feel better to write at least something about it. Friends, all that I am asking for is your understanding, and for you to not ask me anything about it. As I have mentioned, this is something I really have to do.
Oh yes if anyone was waiting to find out what I did yesterday, well I didn’t even exercise at all. I had to return the Fit earlier than usual and my afternoon study wasn’t productive, so I made a choice to not work out and pay more attention to my Money and Banking notes. However, this morning I went for a 10 klik run before I hit the gym so I was quite happy about that.
Ok I have to get back to my notes again. Oh yes, if anyone is concerned about me after reading this, don’t worry I am doing fine. Other than having to adjust to certain changes, and dealing with some shit that is going to come really soon, I am fine. So relax but thanks for the concern though
Matan Out
However things have come to my life recently that have made me realize that no matter how I hard I try, I will never be able to make my life completely transparent because there are bound to be secrets that everyone has to keep.
One of the reasons I started blogging was because I got into a lot of shit keeping a lot of things to myself and living horrible lies and I figured with an online journal that was dedicated towards my daily rantings about the issues about my life, I would be more conscious of the consequences that I would suffer should I engage in any implicating activities. And generally I have succeeded other than that one moment that cost me a friend, but trust me I did have noble intentions in keeping it from him. I swear. But the point is that I feel a lot better being more open and upfront about everything where I didn’t have to hide anything and my life was an open book.
But today, it has dawned upon me that sometimes secrets are not kept because of its potential to implicate the individual keeping the secret. In fact, many a time major secrets are kept because of its potential to implicate a lot of people, especially people close to your heart.
And it is under this motivation to protect these people that I am going to have to keep another secret, to do something that I have been trying to avoid for a very long time, but it has come to a point where honouring the trust bestowed upon me will be the most important thing I do here.
I realize by blogging about it, its not going to make it any easier for myself or anyone to understand, but it is after all my personal blog and it really makes me feel better to write at least something about it. Friends, all that I am asking for is your understanding, and for you to not ask me anything about it. As I have mentioned, this is something I really have to do.
Oh yes if anyone was waiting to find out what I did yesterday, well I didn’t even exercise at all. I had to return the Fit earlier than usual and my afternoon study wasn’t productive, so I made a choice to not work out and pay more attention to my Money and Banking notes. However, this morning I went for a 10 klik run before I hit the gym so I was quite happy about that.
Ok I have to get back to my notes again. Oh yes, if anyone is concerned about me after reading this, don’t worry I am doing fine. Other than having to adjust to certain changes, and dealing with some shit that is going to come really soon, I am fine. So relax but thanks for the concern though
Matan Out
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