Hypocrite
Hey everyone. I feel like shit guys. I contemplated for a long time as to whether i wanted to post this up online for the whole world to see. I started blogging with one of my objectives hoping to be more transparent with my life so that I wouldn be living a lie. But guess what, I am doing it again.
The guilt of keeping this in, is killing me. I am not really sure if it is the guilt that is bothering me or the disappointment and heartbreak that I am feeling. I guess ill never know cos both cases I am not gonna do anything about it. Somehow I just cannot face up to the truth and admit it. On the other hand I really cant let go. I really wished life was simpler and that i didnt have to think about it. But thats the problem. I always wonder if its just me or does shit fall on my lap all the time.Somehow I am pretty sure there was nothing much i could have done to prevent this. But then again, I could just be beingdefensive about it all.
I am sorry. I really didnt know what to do. Everything happened very fast and I guess I was too overwhelmed by everything. I hope someday you will find it in your heart to forgive.I really am sorry.
The guilt of keeping this in, is killing me. I am not really sure if it is the guilt that is bothering me or the disappointment and heartbreak that I am feeling. I guess ill never know cos both cases I am not gonna do anything about it. Somehow I just cannot face up to the truth and admit it. On the other hand I really cant let go. I really wished life was simpler and that i didnt have to think about it. But thats the problem. I always wonder if its just me or does shit fall on my lap all the time.Somehow I am pretty sure there was nothing much i could have done to prevent this. But then again, I could just be beingdefensive about it all.
I am sorry. I really didnt know what to do. Everything happened very fast and I guess I was too overwhelmed by everything. I hope someday you will find it in your heart to forgive.I really am sorry.
posted by Superhero at 8:51 AM
1 Comments:
if everything was easy, we would cease to live..i mean that's what it is right... Life - a game where no one really knows the rules. We all hate it but play anyway because we're all suckers haha... knowing you matan,you will rise above all because well.. you're matan.
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