How's Life

My apologies for not updating my blog all this time. Things have been pretty hectic and I really haven't had the time to spare for indulging in some self refelction and making some narrative expressions about my mundane life. I am actually in school right now waiting for my next lesson. I reached school earlier than i should cos my MOE interview ended early. I will choose not to comment on the interview as yet, cos they will be getting back to me in time, and I wouldnt want to be anticipating anything until they actually get back to me. Hopefully its better news than the interviews I attended previously.

Other than preparing for this interview, I filed for graduation last week just to realize that I didnt have enough Unrestricted Electives to fulfil graduation requirements. This is extremely shocking cos I have always been very careful when choosing my modules and I even have 124 modular credits when all I need is 120. However, some of the modules that I thought could be classified as an elective falls under a different classification. So three weeks into the semester, I had to run up and down, to and from the Dean's office and departments appealing and looking for a module to add. Thank goodness, I realized this at the nick of time, for I really cant imagine myself doing an extra semester just to do one single module, and delaying my entry into NIE. From this incident, I also decided to drop my extra modules and do only 4 modules cos I dont think there is a point to making extra effort to do an extra module in the hope of improving my cap, especially when it might just work against me. So all in all, realizing this is starting to turn out to be a good thing.

So the fine I incurred costs 170 dollars, a further depletion into my virtually bankrupt account. All this debts make me want to start working so bad so that I have the spending power instead of this endless search for ways to get money to pay for stuff. I suppose I will have to be resilient with my current lifestyle and wait for July.

Haven't been out that much lately. In fact I was only at simpang once last week, which should tell a lot about how busy I have been. However I did manage to exercise and visit the gym regularly and we had a good soccer session yesterday, although it pales in comparison if you experienced the great workout we had last week. Thanks to all who REARRANGED OR ATTEMPTED TO REAARANGE their busy schedule to fit in soccer into your time and making yesterday happen. My apologies for having been late. I will not make excuses but I had to pick up a couple of friends and fetch certain essential logistics, so I hope you all understand. Special thanks to Carlos's cousin for coming despite having to book in last night and allowing us to reminisce about our adoloscent days and our foolish acts. Lets makes it a weekly thing guys, maybe with everyone else making the similar effort to make it happen.

Thats it for now.
Azuan Out

$2...

That is the amount of money i have been surviving on for the past week...if I am not wrong. In fact actually I had 10 bucks, but either the money was stolen or it was taken from me, both cases i dont know about it and the root of the matter is that I just have 2 dollars only. I suppose it is extremely pathetic of me but I am quite proud of myself for having survived thie ordeal. Not proud of the fact that i am disgustingly broke, but the amount of effort I have taken to live through is pretty amazing, even for me. How did i get to this state? I am not an excessive spendthrift, cos i dont really spend on myself. I have no new clothes, new shoes or new things. I havent bought any high tech gadgets or new handphones recently although i would kill for a digi cam right now. I think the cause of my bankruptcy is basically the bills that i have to pay every single month. These bills will include the long list of things that I have to pay that is associated with my car. There is the monthly installment, the exhorbitant petrol costs, and the fines. Speaking of which, somehow a hidden "mobile" speed camera caught a photo of me doing a 70 on a 50 km/h road along Tampines Ave 1. Not only have I just been awarded 8 demerit points, I was actually told that I might have to pay over 200 dollars worth of fines. Sigh... Then there is also a $30 dollar fine for parking at the National Stadium while queing for tickets. It is during these times that God is trying to tell me something. That maybe I am not destined to own a vehicle now or that i shouldnt be owning a vehicle at all. This happened when I had the bike and it seems to be happening all over again with the car. But i really think I need it. Firstly, i wouldnt have these many job assignments and tuition assignments if I didnt have the car. And I really wouldnt want to disappoint the people at home. I am not saying that they would not be ok if we sold it, but i just dont want to not-finish what i initiated. More so for my siblings.

I am running late so ill just leave with this note. I realize I am living a facade which I cant get out of. But thats anther issue altogether. See Ya.
Azuan Out.

EidulAdha Greetings to All

I spent my whole day at home and most of the time in the same state that I am in right now, staring into my lap top. The family didnt go out and the only time i left the house was to go for friday prayers in the afternoon. Please dont get me wrong. I wasnt busy at work either. I did attempt to do a bit of revision and finish up my tutorial assignments, and technically speaking, i really did spend the entire time doing that, only that there were the "occasional" interruptions of msn and phone conversations, checking of emails and "stuff I had to do". I remembered once when I was interviewed by a particular tabloid magazine and i was asked to describe myself in one word. Some how, then, i though that word was Discipline. I think this would be an appropriate time for someone to say "Why you lying!!?"

I am sure that everyone must have watched American Idol Season 4. I personally think that Simon Fuller(the creator) and the people who formulated such a phenomenon is really brilliant. Judging from the amount of people who came for the auditions and the response from each state, I seriously dont think that its popularity will ever wear off. I was however quite disturbed by some of the decisions made by the judges. Examples of these would be, not putting through to the next wround one of the triplets, the obnoxious Joe and the "affected" student of a singing teacher. I know i might not be the best person to be questioning the judges' decisions based on my limited musical knowledge, but i think even William Hung himself could tell that all these three contestants had really good voices with decent looks. Isnt this enough to put these people through to the next round and make the improvements required? Curvatious Triplet could lose weight, obnoxious Joe could be less irritating and stop talking so much and what in the world does affected mean? If it means he or she was putting up an act while performing, then my reply would be Fantasia was affected but yet she went all the way to be the American Idol. It would be worrying if the judges were not being objective in the judging criteria and decisions which might render injustice to all the contestants. I know its the Amercan Idol, and it surely dosnt have anything to do with me, but maybe it was time that the judges chose The American Idol, not Randy, Paula or Simon's Idol.

Its is Hari Raya Haji and i would like to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya and to my non muslim friends, Happy Long Weekend!!! I wold like to take this opportunity to seek forgiveness from all my friends, fellow bloggers and readers in the event that i might have offended anyone with my constant ramblings on this blog or on my tag box...

School's good

I have got some time to kill while waiting for the time to break my fast. Today wasnt really a very productive day so i shall not be writing much about it but as a continuation to my previous posting, I shall just write about the great time i have been having in schoo this week.

As all of you would have known, I have a 3 day week again and i have my thursdays and fridays off which is great cos it gves me a lot of time if u look at the hours of different days in bulk. School has been great not only because of my 3 day week but because i have been paying attention and closely following my lectures. This gives me the feeling that i am actually gaining useful knowledge and at the same time continuing to be consistent with the lesson. Consistency i feel is the key towards doing well, and its usually because we slack in going to lectures or actually paying atention during them that you tend to fall behind in class. However tutorials havent started and there is where i would need to be more hardworking than i am right now. Not saying that I am very hardworking now la.

I have been keeping to my plan these past few days and i feel really great about it. I have kept up with all my lectures and printing my notes, and taking them. I have also kept up with my exercise regime of running, gyming and swimming although I havent been keeping to my low carbo diet. Somehow my plan of staying in school to finish all i need to finish is working and i feel quite good about it. Not only will i finish my work, i get to exercise without spending a single cent cos school has all the facilities i need. Hopefully this lifestyle streches all the way till i finish this semester.

ok the prayer has just been called...hmm is that right? Whatever, time to eat.

Azuan Out.

Its been too long

I have been so busy since last friday that i havent had the time to do one of my favourite past time, blogging. And i have so much to say that i have decided that i am going to split up this posting into different days. And for those who have commented how lengthy and wordy my blog is, i would have to apologize cos this is going to be anther one of those....Bear with it. I would also like to say a big hi to all the lovely people in my tag box. Although i am clueless about who all of you are, i still would like to say Welcome to my Humble abode.

Saturday 15th January 2005
It was an early morning for me cos i had to be at Si Ling Secondary by 830am. And thank goodness i left house early, because the if there was a more hulu place to place the school then it would have to be somewhere in Johore. Well the point is, it was reall far from my place but considering i was driving and i was going to earn 90 bucks, i guess it was worth it. It was the first Mendaki Tuition session of the year and you could see all the kids as clueless as all the tutors, just that the tutors were better at hiding their expressions. I was teaching Sec 3NA and Sec 4NA Maths and i kinda like it because i wouldnt be seeing the same kids for 3 whole hours and i was teaching a challenging subject that stimulates my mental abilities as well. My kids seem like good kids or at the very least manageable. Maybe they were just intimidated by my presence and my stern persona. Or maybe they were just intrigued by a Malay looking tutor who calls himself Mr Tan. You should have seen their faces when they saw the words Mr Tan on the whiteboard. I suppose i really look Malay la huh. Well. If there was something bad about his tuition assignment, it would be the fact that i would have to be that i cant wear jeans to work, which i think is quite ridiculous cos even qualified teachers are allowed to wear jeans on Saturdays. Well, ill just have to buy more clothes then.

So there were some familiar faces amongst the tutors and we started talking. That was when someone started mentioning about how was school and whether i was involved in the going-ons in school with regards to the different societies in school. Before i could say anything, they started talking about certain inefficiencies and dislike about these organizations in school. It was interesting yet wierd for someone to be bitching about the organization i helped to create. Probably she didnt know who iwas because she was a year 1 student and i havent really been Mr Popular in school. But i must say it must have been weird. In fact, there was also another occasion of bitching with another acquaintance of mine about this organization, and i just stood there and listened. Well i am just an advisor and i havent been very much involved in many of their activities so i felt i was not in a position to start being defensive. I shall just treat it as constructive feedback to be highlighted to the proper channels. If i was still the VP, then i should get a little worked up, but then again if i was the VP then i dont think i would be able to hear these conversations.

Sunday 17th January 2005
This day has to be titled a National Holiday because I have been waiting for this day since last wednesday. Today was the finals of the second leg Tiger Cup finals between Singapore and Indonesia and we all bought grandstand tickets. I cant really explain why I was so excited but i suppose it was the whole sense of partiotism in me that kicked in. I might not know the current cup winning team but i have always been very supportive of Singaporean sports, even in sports that i know they would never excel in. But I will always say this, Whos will support Singapore if not Singaporeans? I am very proud of my home, my country and my friends can lay testament to that but that shall be a topic for another day. As i was saying, I was super excited to relive the Malysia Cup era where we religiously went to the Kallang Stadium on a match day. So all dressed up in red, we went to the stadium. We were late though therefore we ddnt really get good seats at the grandstand but thank god, we bought the grandstand seats for if not we would have been sitting behind the goalpost looking at Lionel's Lewis's butt. The match and the atmosphere certainly disappoint. As we all know by now, Singapore are now Asean's soccer maestros and I am really proud of that, and so are many other Singaporeans especially people at the sports desk of the local tabloids. Nevertheless, somehow i have a gut feeling that this sense of euphoria is gonna be shortlived, cos of the high expectations now that we are champions. Lets just enjoy the moment. We ended the day with the usual simpang session after having gone there for some time so all in all it was good day, soaking in the spirit comaraderie, both amongst loyal die hard fans and amongst friends.

Truly remarkable

Before I go on to explain why my post is tittled so, I would like to give a shout out to Mr Angelsoul for hosting the greatest house party ever and to those who helped to contribute by making an invite on behalf of the host himself, for cooking the delicious pasta, the fried chicken and the nuggets and to everyone else including yours truly for finishing the food. Not also forgetting the Wayans family for producing the most hilarious show I have seen in 2005(we watched White Chicks after dinner hehe) and Angelsouls's parents for going to Bali and allowing the most happening house party to have happened.

Now back to why i have decided to name this post "truly remarkable". It all boils down to 3 main reasons.

1. I helped facilitate an ala Amazing Race programme for Nu Quest and the clients we were serving were ShangRi La's Chinese tour group or something like that. Basically they were all Chinese from China, and therefore they had no command of English at all. Which obviously meant i had to converse with them in Mandarin. Imagine that. They didnt have enough people to conduct the programme and i needed the money, so that was how i ended u in Sentosa that morning. Due to my Kindergarten Mandarin education and the many conversations i have had with my Chinese friends, somehow i thought i could converse in the language. However, soon i realised that these were ethnic Chinese whose Mandarin is relatively quite different from the Mandarin I speak. But somehow or rather managed to deliver it and i am truly proud of that. Although copying instructions and certain words in hanyu pinyin and having a great assistant helped a lot. Thanks again Adeline,( even if iknow u wont be reading this).
What can I say?Personally i think it is A truly remarkable feat for me to have delivered the programme in Mandarin.

2.I finally got the tuition posting under MDIS for Mendaki Tuition Scheme. From now onwards i will be travelling every saturday morning to Si Ling Secondary taching Sec 3 and 4 Normal Academic Students Mathematics. Yeah!!!! This would certainly help alleviate my financial worries, although i was hoping that i would get another centre on a sunday morning. But well i should be grateful instead. The remarkable thing was that MDIS didnt call me at all. In fact i was already lamenting and giving up on ever getting a teaching position. Especially when i heard from all my colleagues that they have all gotten their posting. I was already thinking of other ways to earn money. Then, as i did my Friday prayers, during my last protration, i asked God for help in this. Somehow it gave me the confidence to call them up. I was already expecting an answer saying that the " I am sorry Mr Azuan, according to your diagnstic tests and your personality profiling, u are not what we are looking for" Instead they called me back, saying this
"Azuan, I am awae that you were once a tutor with us at Canberra Secondary and it was because of that experience we were having doubts about employing you, however gven the fact that you called, we would like to give you an opportunity..."
I was ecstatic although i shouldnt be given the remarks she made because all this while I thought i didnt fare toowell with the test scores when in actual fact it was because of my irregular attendance during my previous stint with them. And I have to add that back then i was bogged down by my MS commitments and my dragon boat commitments. I gave them an assurance of the high level commitment iwould be giving thsi time round and they told me another set of instructions about Saturday.
What was truly remarkable about this was that had i not called i would still be jobless this semester. I am truly grateful to God for showing mercy on me despite the fact that i havent been a loyal servant to Him, yet he still threw me me lifeline, that allowed me to teach a challenging group that provided the highest pay.
Truly remarkable I have to say.

3. My last and final reason isnt really as positive as the ones above. In fact it would lie on the other end of the positive-negative spectrum, if there was such a thing. Somehow i found out today about how people form impressions about me even before speaking to me or finding out more about me. How people were able to form impressions from the company i keep. How my reputation pecedes me and that people i do nt know are able to recognise me and make judgements about the person that I am. This I find truly remarkable because for the first time, i have been referred to as "distasteful". Wow!!! To the person reading and empathising with all this, please dont get me wrong, I am not disappointed in them or you for that matter. I have come to realise that everything happens for a reason, and God has his ways in acheving anything. I will just be taking this in my stride and contemplating and reflecting on how anyone coud pass such a judgement about me.For some obscure reason, there must be some truth for people to pass such judgements.
I will not be living my life any differently. But i wll definitely ponder over this to better improve myself.
But once again, i really think this is truly remarkable.

Ok, its time to go and do my maghrib prayers and continue to be grateful to the Al Mighty for such a truly remarkable day.

Azuan Out.

Change dates

I was reading all my previous entries and i swear i was really disgusted at the amount of mistakes i made while typing. Stuff like 'through and fro...' some of my friends would be lauging thri heads off knowing all these. For those unaware, the phrase i shoud have used was to and fro. There were even occasion when i missed out words that when read could have made me sound like some Ah beng speaking in really broken english. well, I will not change those entries cos I am just lazy and i figured it would take away the essence of a blog that is a representation of the times.

Well...I just realized i skipped blogging yesterday... and that all the dates on my entries are all screwed up as well cos of the date clocked on my blog. So I have changed it and maybe all would be good now.

So i went to queue up for the tickets for the Singapore Indonesia Game on Thursday. The tickets were supposed to start selling at 12 but me and my friends decided that we should go earlier to queue up cos we predicted that the tickets would be sold out if we didnt get there in time. We arrived there at 11 and were amongst the first few in the queue. Thank goodness for that because by the time it was 12, the queue reached all the way to the bottom of the staircase of the National Stadium East Entrance, which I am sure you all know how long that is. In fact i was nt so sure those who queued up on that long queue all got the grandstand tickets, cos a friend went there later and told us that the grandstand tickets were sold out by 1245.
Well, as we predicted, such is the case when our Lions hold the advantage after winning 3-1 at t Jakarta. If Singapore was going to the game trailing the Indonesians, i dont think the tickets would even be sold at such high prices, 12 dollars for grandstand and 7 dollars for gallery.

But i must say it was a truly interesting trip going to the stadium to queue for tickets. There was this weird guy waiting in line with us, errmmmm actually oretending to wait in line with us. He was actually trying to jumo queue ahead of us and the people in front of us gave him a harder time then we did. It was truly hilarious because he was really weird. Imagine a guy dressed in bermudas wit a tucked in pink polo tshirt showing off his belly, cropped like an army recruit hairdo and the nerdiest brand of glasses ever. Its not just his looks, cos he snorts a lot and makes a weird sound. So loud, we were too irritated to ignore. He receive so much flak from us that he had to attempt another queue jump behind us which he ultimately suceeded at doing. At first i sympathised with the poor fellow, but then when we realixed he understood all our jokes, i had to withdraw the sympathy usually given to foreigners and disabled guys who didnt know what was happening.

Him and the spirit seen in my fellow singaporeans especially when the ticketing personell arrived too late made the queue truly interesting. One note i have to express is at how disappointed i am with the organisers of the tiger cup or the administration that is responsible for ticketing that day. I dont understand why they could not have arrived on time to sell the tickets especially when there was a long queue waiting for at least an hour. It is truy unbecoming of any organisation represnting our nation since we boast so much about our efficiency and our first class customer service. Lets hope things get better on game night.

Thats all i will be saying for now. Its 4 am in the morning and i need to wake up early to continue my exercise regime. Yeah its been quite good. Hopefully it continues on forever...although i have a bad feeling it wont.

Good night.

Back To School

Actually it has been 2 days since school started, but I haven't been feeling really well and haven't had a lot of time to actually spend in front of the computer, so blogging wasn't really a priority. I am actually in the dark alleys of the dungeon, hahaha, during my two hour break before my next lecture begins at 12. The Dungeon is actually the one of the corridors in AS1 which looks like a cave cos its surrounded by a classes on one side and a dense forest on the other, well at least I think it looks like a forest. It actually is one of the places me and my friends hang out when we are in school during our breaks.

So anyway, its a Tuesday and the second day of school and work has started piling. Despite the fact that I would be graduating at the end of this semester, I am still going to work extra hard this sem, cos I figured, lets make my last semester of University meaningful by doing well for once. Well I know I say this at the beginning of every semester but the same results happen at the end but somehow it seems different this time round. So I shall not let my work pile up and stay consistent throughput the semester. Well people, lets see how long this enthusiasm lasts.

One thing that's good this sem, is that I have a three day week schedule as well. Have school only from Monday to Wednesday, that is if all my tutorials are allocated according to plan. Haven't really thought of hat I would do on Thursdays and Fridays but considering my "enthusiasm" I shall just say, that weekdays are for school and weekends for everything else. Maybe on some occasional nights, I could slot in some simpang sessions. HAHAHA. Occasional, talk about ambitious.

Did I mention I haven't been feeling too well? Well I have been under the flu since I came back from camp, but it has never lasted this long, especially when I have been taking my medicine regularly. The problem now is that there seems to be a lot of phlegm in my system and somehow it impedes breathing. My rationale is that, the doctor prescribed me dextromethrphan which in essence is for dry cough however my cough is obviously wet. So maybe, it suppresses my cough thus disallowing the phlegm to exit my system. But what do I know? He was after all trained in medicine so I should not try to be smart. However if this discomfort persists tomorrow, I will go back to the polyclinic la. Don't want a minor flu to develop into pneumonia.

Its a brand new year but things haven't really started off well. Well for starters I have no tuition assignments whatsoever. MDIS hasn't called at all and some of my friends have gotten placements. Furthermore, it is scheduled to start this weekend. I have not had any A level Econs offers as well which is rather worrying would have to rely on money from camps and such. Whats worse, the guy who owes me money for my bike still hasn't paid a single cent and by now he actually owes me two months worth of it.

Other than that, I am making an effort to get my life really organized. I have removed the stitches from my hand therefore I can start working out now. Haven't been able to do that for close to 3 weeks and its starting to affect me badly. I should be coming down to school on Thursday to get things done for school, like stationery and books although I am still wondering where I am gonna get the money. My ultimate plan, would be to wake up early, for my daily run, breakfast and get ready for school. Attend all my lectures and tutorials and finish all my work n school before I head home. This includes printing notes and finishing tutorial assignments. I am taking 3 econs modules this sem so there is gonna be a lot of tutorial assignments. Before I head home, I would visit the gym and swim, depending on the amount of time I have. Definitely sometimes I would make way for the occasional sessions of going out, watching movies, playing pool and stuff it has to be occasional, cog as I said earlier, weekdays are for school I am home, I must pack my bag with stuff I need for the next day and put stuff in my files that have been accorded to the different modules. After which, I will read the papers and watch TV and just before I go to sleep maybe go online to blog and stuff. The key is to sleep early allowing me to wake up early the next day to start my highly organized, routine day...Yeah!!!!

Everyone has a right to dream la.....Just read it with a pinch of salt. haha.
Ok, in 10 minutes time I will be attending a lecture on Malay Ideas on Development. Development and Malays, what an oxymoron. This is gonna be really interesting. See ya soon people.

The disciplined Azuan
Out.

Bedok View Oi

Well evryone, Iam back. Actually I came back yesterday, but i wasnt feeling too well so i couldnt blog. So what have you all been up to? hahhaha. Who the hell am i directing that question to? Well its to all "the peak" readers.... and obviously it isnt that many cos my chatter box isnt really that full of chats...get it get it...ahahahaha.

Anyway as i said earlier, yes i wasnt feeling too well and as you would have guessed it, its due to the camp i just came back from. From the 5th to the 7th of January I did a camp for Bedok View Sec. The camp was an orientation camp for all the Sec 1s who just entered the school. Now for those who are new to this whole concept, there are organizations and companies that are employed by other organizations, companies and schools to conduct camps for them. These are companies that organize and conduct these camps professionally according to the tastes and preferences of the organization that employs them. These tastes and preferences range from motivational workshops and corporate team building activities for corporate companies to orientation camps and leadership training camps for schools. So as you can see its quite wide ranging therefore requiring really meticulous planning. Now these companies( those that organize the camps) would require trainers or camp facilitators. And in a camp like the one i just did, u need trained manpower of over 20 people and many of these companies end up having to employ freelance trainers out in the labour market because they simply dont have the manpower. It is also relatively cheaper as compared to employing full time trainers. So i belong to this pool of trainers la. Hahaha, such a long story to explain all that. Anyway just wanted to explain to those who aint got a clue of what i was talking about.

Yes so i did the camp for bedok view and this time round I was working with Master reign, another company. Met some old TPJC mates there who were trainers as well. And to top it off they were chinese so in that sense, i didnt really feel left out.There isnt much to say about the camp othe than the fact that the kids were cute but definitely mischievious and playful. As you can see, i refer to them as kids instead of students cos honestly speaking these kids were really more like 12 year olds than Sec 1 students. One thing i think I have grown out off, is in my exaggerated display of emotions at the end of each camp I organize, conduct or attend. History would tell that Azuan always cries at the end of any camp, regardless of how significant or fantastic the camp was. And by crying I really mean tears flowing down like rain water coupled wit all the sobbing, red eyes and runny nose. However this time around , i didnt do that at all. Well, actually it has subsided for quite some time, only that it was today that i did not shed a single tear. Previously, it progressed from just tears without the sobbing, and then just tears and then it was just a tear or two rolling fown my cheeks.

To answer the question, why i cry, I cant really answer cos i suppose there are many reasons. I used to think that camps were really fun and the bonds created with the people close to me in groups were so great that i couldnt bear the thought of leaving them, so it was too sad and therefore that made me cry. Then there were times when i cried cos oh happiness and satisfaction when a camp i organized were well received by those who attended and the sense of satisfaction must have overwhelmed me. Then there were times when it was just sad cos of issues that happened that caused us to somehow end the greatevent on a bad note. But generally most of the time, I figured that the main reason for my sadness is in the fact that somehow camps allow you to escape reality and start afresh in an entirely new environment, new setting that allowed you to adapt and relive it all over again in the social and emotional sense. Probably I got carried away from the whole escapism and totally immersed in the temporary reality that the thought of losing the happiness and satisfaction found in the temporary reality saddened me terribly. There fore the tears.

Somehow maybe, I have learnt how to contain these emotions but more importantly looking further and realizing the temporary state of things and not get carried away.Furthermore, I am doing camps too often nowadays and i suppose iwould have gottne used to it and bioligically the crying stopped i guess.

Dont get me wrong. I am not ashamed of crying because of this. Because there might be times in the future when siuations get intense and a man as big as i do, might just be seen crying like a baby. All I am saying is that sometimes a man has to control his emotions for the benefit of everyone around. And that i must try to do, for if not it could bring bad stuff.

IF u were wondering why, the title for this post, well that was the phrase i used most of the time to get the attention of my campers. The other one was addresed to my group, which sounded "Thosai Oi", and yes their group name was thosai.

Well I am feeling sleepy after taking medicine. You see, i came back from my camp catching a flu and a bad sorethroat. Therefore I went to the doctor and I was prescribed a lot of stuff seh...well thank go it was cheap. AnywayI am feling drowsy from the piriton and the dextrometrophan that i just took, so ill just catch up later...

Out
Best Trainer In the World hahaha

I am not a fan...I just like Man U

Well basically that sums up my day. Somehow my friends made me proclaim that I cant be a Man U fan, because of my ignorance about the club. Since i dont follow the club's match schedules reigiously or know some really minor details that THEY say a fan should know, I cannot be a Man U fan. Therefore, since I support Manchester United so much, which I must say is the greatest football club ever, and "according to some other-similar-colour-club fans" I cant be a fan, I shall just say I am not a fan of Man U, I just like the club.

Haha..issues like the above were just some of the topics laid on the familiar tables of simpang which i will sincerely miss once school reopens. Cos I am going to make an effort not to be chilling there too mch cos once again I have to say this is my last sem, on top of the fact that my parents have expressed their concerns, and pissing them off is really the last thing i wanna do right now.

Finally went to MDIS today and accomplished everything ineeded to do, only now it is up to them to choose. The diagnostic test I had to take was pretty difficult though, althugh i was ambitious in choosing to teach the highest level available. And i ended up not finishing a question, cos i had to pick up my parents. For everyone's info, I am applying to be an MDIS tutor where i would teach under the Mendaki Tuition Scheme on weekends. And they are using personality profiling and a diagnosic test as a selection criteria. Well I have been doing this for years, however the system seems to change every year and i have to reapply every year to ensure I nake the cut. Well this is something I have to do if i was going to allay any of my financial fears in the coming year. Yes, money has a lot to do with why i am doing this, I shall not lie and claim that "its my way of giving back to society".

There is so mch more i want to write but its 2:38 am in the morning and I have to get up at 730 to go for a camp this morning. So ill think ill call it a night guys, but ill be backon Friday. In the meantime, have fun people and have a great year ahead.

Oh ya... back on the topic of azuan;s apparent ignorance, to all Man U FANS out there, Darren Fletcher is Scottish. Hahahaha.

Glory glory Man United.
Out.

Chatter Box

By now...many would have realizd I have a chatter box installed. So for everyone who happens to be reaidng, please feel free to drop a line or 2 into my humble box... "so that we cann all feel like a family"Haha Thats what the advertisement reads when i was choosing a box to install.

Anyway a friend commented on why i wanted to have a box as well. Apparently so, he has a hugely controversial tag board that makes the Inquisitor seem like child's play. Obviously, he thinks that i would want that as well.... Well honestly, the attention if achieved would be extremely flattering, but i would have to disappoint him cos sincerely it is for the purpose of letting everyone say whatever it is u wanna say where everyone can really feel like they are communicating with one another. So again, pour your hearts in my fellow bloggers and surfers.

Another friend has just gotten a blog as well. Seems the power of the keyboard is spreading hahahaha. And hers seem so mch cooler, even though she started later than i did. Haiz, time to buck up. Anyway recently had a fight with her( this friend of mine), and up till now we havent resolved it. We used to be able to resolve it withing days, but this is the longest ever. ANd i realized that this time i am angry ah....

Should i be pissed? Would it mean that i am a bloody sensitive pussy? Well i guess it might, but honestly i couldnt care less. A lot of things hae happened in the last year that have made me realize what friendship really is, and i can safely say that she is definitely one person that i sincerely would consider a great friend. A really great one. And for that i am truly appreciative. Been thru some rough times, the 2 of us. And i love her a lot for that. She knows that. Well what we are arguing about could be a minute compared to the shit we have been through, but i am terribly disturbed by it and i have dismissed it for a long time, thinking that it was realy nothing. But i guess it got too much.

You cannot expect me to tell you everything that is going on with my life ncluding all my shit, without u keeping your end of the bargain. And if u observe properly, everytime i ask you about it, u just keep mum or refuse to say anything. And there is a limit to what i can do here. But yet, you seem to know every single thing in my life, because i told you without a thought at all. Maybe its me, and that you dont seem to trust me, although i dont see what credibility you have in making that judgement, especially you. Even so, then you might need to reconsider the pacts we have and the strong ties of friendship you so uphold and claim to have between us.

Again, i dont wish to argue.It mught be minute but i personally think its too disturbing just to let go. Furthermore, i believe that i should be able to talk to you whenever i need to, for if not then here is no point to thi at all.

Ok enough about that. Sorry for those who would not be able to understand everything i have just written, especially the haphazard discourse structure and grammar. My apologies but it is after all my blog and i would write as i deem fit. Which reminds me, a friend actually commented that my english was horrendous, which is rather refreshing, but well everyone is entitled to their opinions. For that, whenever necessary, i shall be absolutely cautious of the english that i use. Pardon me as well, for any apparent typo errors that u might sometimes see on my postings. I am just too lazy to check before submitting my posts.

Anyway its few more days before school reopens. Bidding rounds are in and i dont understand how i was outbidded for all my econs modules. Where are the priorities laid for final year and major students? Gone with the tsunami waves i guess. But i guess i would have to rebid again tomorrow.

There are a lot of things which has to be done. More importantly is to secure my financial supplies for the year. I have to get to MDIS tomorrow, cos if not then there would be nil income. I have to pay Mum and Dillah back. He is my best friend by the way.

had a great time today going out watching oceans twelve. It was a fantastic movie and everyone must watch it. It was really a great day today that i ended up thinking what am i doing? Althoug i realized it did burn a hole in my pocket la, but i guess it was money well spent. Looks like i would be starving for the whole of January and maye even february. But honestly in that sense it was a good day.

Actually could have been better, had the guitar today and i planned to sing and play, but somehow it didnt happen. If not it would have been a perfect day. Well these days dont come by that often. Haha.

Ok I am tired. I know this is a really bad entry guys. I am sorry, just too lazy to be meticulous. Ill catch up with ya soon.

Azuan Out