Speech Day

Its a wet friday afternoon and I can vouch for how wet it is because i was under the rain for the longest time. Actually in real time, it was more like 20 seconds. But when I was running from my car to a place of shelter, it felt way longer than that. Wearing a blue long sleeved shirt and pants didnt help. I thought I had an umbrella at the back of my car where i could reach for should the rain decide to pour. I thought wrong because when I was finally happy with my parking, i turned around to find nothing there but my collection of teddy bears and hello kittys. oops I meant my sister's collection. Anyway, i figured I must have put it in the boot. I looked behind gauging the distance of the nearest shelter and I thought that the time taken for me to reach into my boot to search for my unmbrella and the time it would take for me to make a run for it wouldn't be that different. So i followed that gut feeling of mine and made a run for it. As soon as i started running, I knew I had made the wrong decision. The rain got heavier, my light blue shirt became much darker, my shoes were wet and my tidyly gelled hair was messed up. Then i discovered that the sole of my shoes had worn out so instead of running, i had to walk my way to that not-so near shelter.

That my friends was a presonal recount of my journey from the car to my office in school. I had to wear smartly because its speech day today and I have to help usher guests to the hall. Actually I dont think I am going to end up doing anything, because frankly there are so many teachers involved in ushering that if i were to take my job seriously I would look like over-zealous idiot. So i am just going to stand there and pretend to usher. Wait, Ill do something else. Ill look good doing it. He he.

Ciaoz. Usher time. (Not the soul singer)

BB

you thought that was the last of me

If you had asked me a year ago if i would revitalize my blog site, I would have said "Get outta here". But here i am. One and half years. Thats how long it has been i think. I am not going to bother logging out to search for the date of my my most recent or not so recent post cos it doesnt really matter. The fact is that I am posting again and we shall see how long this lasts.

Before i continue, there are a few disclaimers i need to make for everyone who reads this.
Firstly- I own a new lap top now and I would usually be posting from this new baby of mine. Nevertheless, with me nothing ever comes in perfect. The "a" button on my keyboard is a little screwed up. I wanted to get it checked erlier but my brother says its because of this new case sensitive thing installed into new keyboards and that i had to get used to typing on it and everything would be fine. Read on and you will find all the missing As in my words. Its been 4 months anyway since i first got hold of it. Yes, my brother was being an idiot.

Secondly- Afraid that i am going to have students reading, or worse still, colleagues, i am going to have a few private posts. So if you find me making references to something that you cant really make sense of, thats because i cant be bothered to explain and there are just certain things that i choose to keep secret.

Thirdly- I blog to make a spectacle of myself. Cos if its just because i need an outlet for my daily rantings and vent up emotional stress, i would use a diary. Instead i use a blog, a website that is easily accessed by everyone in this world connected by a world wide web. So stop asking me why i blog. I am narcistic and i want people to know that. On the other hand, I cant complain if some "anonymous reader" wants to quote me or incriminate me, or just plain insult me. I am not going to be all cool about it, but in this case, I asked for it.

I am starting to sound like one of those angry teenagers blogging about how everyone is against them and how they hate their lives and everyone else but themselves. No i am not. I am just a PE teacher who has nothing better to do on a sunday afternoon. Usually, I wouls spend my sundays waking up sending my sister to religious class, then going back to bed and then waking up again at 12 to pick her up again. Then i would spend very long hours on the computer or watching tv doing and watching god knows what, waiting in great anticipation to go for a sunday soccer league game my friends and i play in. The guy, who organizes this league didn't contact me the whole week, even after i called and messaged him several times. SO no game for us today.

Tomorrow is a school day. I am back at east spring doing my practicum and this is my 7th week. All my observations are done but i am praying and hoping they make me do one more this coming week. After that it would be exams for the kids and hopefully life would get less stressful for me.

I am self-destructing. I am looking at myself and I realize that I am going to disintegrate soon. Mentally and emotionally i mean. Everything is not really going very well for me and if i dont pick myself up soon, things are really going to get out of hnd and I might not be able to tke control. I hope that by blogging again, I am admitting this to myself AND I would stop stagnating in this awful limbo. Cos honestly, its time to take control.

I am logging off. Need to watch this show I usually miss dus to sunday soccer. Its called windfall. Its a about a group of people striking lottery and how they change when they suddenly become milionaires. With all my finncial woes, this drama is escapism for me.

See y'all in a bit