Gosh
Hey, its been 10 days since my last confession. And i thought i wouldbe one of those regular bloggers, constantly updating my blog. Surprise, surprise. I am not going to be rambling on about past lives, cos this could have been the worst day of my life, and i think i must let it out.
It started out in the morning, where obviously i woke up late and i coud on manage to run and then swim 20 laps. It was more of a cardio workout, but intitially i expected to go to the gym as well, cos the day before, i only managed to play soccer. Well for those of you who do not know, iam on a mission. To shape a body to die for.... and its been going on quite well i think until today. So as i was saying, i couldnt go to the gym cos i could only manage the cardio workout before it was time for prayers. Then when i returned home for prayers, i realized it was the day results was gonna come out. Although iinititally intended to go out immediately after prayers, the results coming out at 3 hed me back. And boy this was my worst results ever.....and i mean worst...Sigh. Really bad. Then i said fuck lets get out and forget all about it, but hell who was i kidding. Was thinking about the whole time i was with friends, even during eating and playing. There was no way i was going to do honours like this, what worse i might not even get to graduate with merit. Well i cant blame anyone but myself, so there is nothing much i can do about it. But seriously i feel like a mother fucking loser. I had a lot of friends doing relativly and here i amin my 3rd cocking everything up. I didnt tell my mum yet, and am quite afraid she would find out, cos then she would be damn dissapointed. Imagine if MOE doesnt want me anymore, i will be fucking screwed, fucking screwed. So i couldnt help brood over it, even while driving, playing pool. After sending a friend home and on my way to meet another, my car had to scratch another taxi. AND IT WAS ENTIRELY MY FAULT. And this had to add on to my financial woes. Where the hell am i going to get the money to pay for compensation. On top of that, the guy i sold my super 4 too is not picking up calls when he has not paid me the monthly 200 bucks. I am so dead, so dead. I had to go home after the stupid accident. Went online while staying at home, and started getting acquainted, with some online friends. Then was invited over to a party, which i decided ill go la. Especially when this friend i was going to pick up was like damn hot. However my mum gave me hell, before i left the house, about the fact that i have been out at night everyday since i got the car. And how i was not a good son, irresponsible.And how i am living my life wrongly. And, imust say that i am very affected by what my mum says, especially cos there is some truth to it. On top of that, she is after all my mum and its just not good when u dont have her blessings. So i left with a heavy heart, bt i left anyway, still thinking about what she said and my results. I went off to pick her up. When i reached her place, i needed to go to the toilet and therefore i told her i needed to use her toilet, and on my way down, i slipped into her pond!!!!
At first, i was more embarased about how clumsy and stupid i must have looked. Then i felt that my hand was wet too, so i decided to check and guess what,the fall created a deep laceration on my right hand!!!!! It was so deep u could see my bone and u could see blood just coming out like nobody;s business. There was like so many layers of skin that the thing cut through. So we kind of spent our first date inTan Tock Seng hospital. I needed 16 stitches and my hand hurts so bad i cant even drive properly. To add on to my bad day, i had to be the best man to my friend's wedding the next day and the day after next, they needed me to drive around for the wedding. Since i was also going to be the emcee, come sunday, you shall see a cacat emcee at the Marina Mandarin Ballroom.
In an entire day, i managed to screw my future with bad results, furher strain the financial debts i am already in, and made myself even worse looking with my cacat hand, and the fact that i wont be able to do weights and swim for a long time. Arghhhhhhhhh
My mum's words kept ringing in my head. I suppose i am living my life poorly and this is god'sway of punushing me. I havent been keeping my prayers.... and i havent been very productive. Have been lying to my parents a lot... What am i going to do? I really dont know
Not keep late nights, setting priorities...Have i really been a bad boy, muslim? Or am i being punished for old times.... I suppose so...I feel like a mother fucking loser. I really didnt think these things would happen...Argh...lets not talk about this.
Feeling so sian, just typing....Well at least i met someone really nice...really nice. And hot!!!!
But remember azuan....let things happen, dont make them.
It started out in the morning, where obviously i woke up late and i coud on manage to run and then swim 20 laps. It was more of a cardio workout, but intitially i expected to go to the gym as well, cos the day before, i only managed to play soccer. Well for those of you who do not know, iam on a mission. To shape a body to die for.... and its been going on quite well i think until today. So as i was saying, i couldnt go to the gym cos i could only manage the cardio workout before it was time for prayers. Then when i returned home for prayers, i realized it was the day results was gonna come out. Although iinititally intended to go out immediately after prayers, the results coming out at 3 hed me back. And boy this was my worst results ever.....and i mean worst...Sigh. Really bad. Then i said fuck lets get out and forget all about it, but hell who was i kidding. Was thinking about the whole time i was with friends, even during eating and playing. There was no way i was going to do honours like this, what worse i might not even get to graduate with merit. Well i cant blame anyone but myself, so there is nothing much i can do about it. But seriously i feel like a mother fucking loser. I had a lot of friends doing relativly and here i amin my 3rd cocking everything up. I didnt tell my mum yet, and am quite afraid she would find out, cos then she would be damn dissapointed. Imagine if MOE doesnt want me anymore, i will be fucking screwed, fucking screwed. So i couldnt help brood over it, even while driving, playing pool. After sending a friend home and on my way to meet another, my car had to scratch another taxi. AND IT WAS ENTIRELY MY FAULT. And this had to add on to my financial woes. Where the hell am i going to get the money to pay for compensation. On top of that, the guy i sold my super 4 too is not picking up calls when he has not paid me the monthly 200 bucks. I am so dead, so dead. I had to go home after the stupid accident. Went online while staying at home, and started getting acquainted, with some online friends. Then was invited over to a party, which i decided ill go la. Especially when this friend i was going to pick up was like damn hot. However my mum gave me hell, before i left the house, about the fact that i have been out at night everyday since i got the car. And how i was not a good son, irresponsible.And how i am living my life wrongly. And, imust say that i am very affected by what my mum says, especially cos there is some truth to it. On top of that, she is after all my mum and its just not good when u dont have her blessings. So i left with a heavy heart, bt i left anyway, still thinking about what she said and my results. I went off to pick her up. When i reached her place, i needed to go to the toilet and therefore i told her i needed to use her toilet, and on my way down, i slipped into her pond!!!!
At first, i was more embarased about how clumsy and stupid i must have looked. Then i felt that my hand was wet too, so i decided to check and guess what,the fall created a deep laceration on my right hand!!!!! It was so deep u could see my bone and u could see blood just coming out like nobody;s business. There was like so many layers of skin that the thing cut through. So we kind of spent our first date inTan Tock Seng hospital. I needed 16 stitches and my hand hurts so bad i cant even drive properly. To add on to my bad day, i had to be the best man to my friend's wedding the next day and the day after next, they needed me to drive around for the wedding. Since i was also going to be the emcee, come sunday, you shall see a cacat emcee at the Marina Mandarin Ballroom.
In an entire day, i managed to screw my future with bad results, furher strain the financial debts i am already in, and made myself even worse looking with my cacat hand, and the fact that i wont be able to do weights and swim for a long time. Arghhhhhhhhh
My mum's words kept ringing in my head. I suppose i am living my life poorly and this is god'sway of punushing me. I havent been keeping my prayers.... and i havent been very productive. Have been lying to my parents a lot... What am i going to do? I really dont know
Not keep late nights, setting priorities...Have i really been a bad boy, muslim? Or am i being punished for old times.... I suppose so...I feel like a mother fucking loser. I really didnt think these things would happen...Argh...lets not talk about this.
Feeling so sian, just typing....Well at least i met someone really nice...really nice. And hot!!!!
But remember azuan....let things happen, dont make them.
posted by Superhero at 5:55 AM
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